Hello Again: A REintroduction

   Did you ever see something in a store, or in an ad that you really wanted to have or do? Maybe it was
that  diary you wanted when you were eight. And then you decided to do it. After two straight weeks of
begging, your mom finally bought the pink sparkly diary, making you the envy of all second grade girls.
At the beginning everything was great, you wrote in your diary every day, talking about everything and
nothing. You were completely committed to that diary, you even brought it with you to school!  But one
day, you forgot to write an entry.


   One day becomes one week, one month, one year. Before you know
it, its been ten years and your digging through old stuff in your closet,  deciding what to throw out, and
wait to save before you head out for college. Then, out of the bottom of the box falls your old pink
sparkly diary.


  Its not as pink, or as pretty as you remember, its been  bent at the corners, and some spots are missing
glitter completely. Yet the moment you see it, you hit a mountain of nostalgia. You read all of your
entries over, about the time you broke your arm on the playground at recess. About your first crush with
 the guy that seemed totally and completely perfect for you. But things have changed. Your arm healed
years ago, and that "perfect guy" turned out to be a perfect jerk, and you've crushed on and dated five
guys since your elementary fantasies.


  You've read for over an hour, wondering what your past self is experiencing next with anticipation. Then, you find a blank page. It stands like a wall, a huge dead end, and you then remember the first day
you forgot to write in it, and all you can think is  ' if only i would have kept at it!'. You regret not writing
 more entries, but the diary just isn't you now. Purple is all the rage now, and all you can do is shake
your head, and place the half finished diary in the keepsakes pile.


 That's how I've been feeling about this blog lately, I've decided that i don't want to find this website ten
years later, read my few entries, and end up deleting it because so much has changed that i cant start all
over and write that new entry. So here's a fresh start that i know i won't regret. I'm still Elaina, and this is
The Night Owl Report

 Best Wishes!

  E

Things Change

  I've spent the last 5 months at least, worried about my church, my christian life. If you don't know me, or I've never explained this to you before, please bear with me cause I'd rather not explain this over the Internet (feel free to ask me if we are in a place to talk).

    I had never considered  the idea of people i considered my best friends choosing a path different from mine so early in life. I had never even fathomed daily church life without them. The announcement was a punch to the face, and honestly, at first i felt betrayed. So very betrayed and alone, how could they do this, when i thought we were so happy there! I was mad, and sad, and hurt. Church just didn't feel the same anymore, an energy I'd grown so used to it was  seemingly natural then, had suddenly died, like an old candle finally being blow out. It was painful going to church, not seeing them there, missing them more than I'd ever thought possible.

  

  It felt awkward to see them and talk as if nothing had changed, and when i finally saw them for the first time after it happened, it was SO obvious there was a wall between us. My friends encouraged me, and i was happy to see them (we hugged, and exchanged sincere conversation), but i couldn't bring it forth in myself to change and embrace the new.

  Many months have passed, and so much has changed. Since it has happened I've had a boyfriend (broken up now), a birthday, and so much more. If you happen to be one of the people privately mentioned in this post (and you know who you are), i want to say that i love all of you as brothers and sisters in Christ, and i miss you a lot. It warms my heart to see you guys now, makes our meets much more appreciated. 

  I believe I'm stronger than i was that fateful August day, and this has made me more prepared to embrace change. I have learned to love my church in different ways, and to bind relationships with people i once hadn't really talked to before. I miss the way things were, but I'm not the exactly the same person i was 5 months ago. I'm ready to embrace High school, and the struggles it will give me. I'm ready to take a plunge into a new experience. It will be hard, and i might struggle with it for a while, but I'm looking forward to it.

   I decided a while ago to let go of the burdens i was carrying  on my shoulders for so long, but now at this moment, it is finally true. I'm still completely dedicated to my church, i love it there and am uncertain if i will ever find it in myself to leave it, despite everything.

  To my friends, i very sincerely hope  that you are happy with whatever life throws at you. I pray you touch people's lives as much as you have mine. I wish you well, and look forward to the next time i get to see you.

  Things might change, but sometimes the best and most wonderful thing to do, is learn to change with them.

    P.S. : Everything mentioned this post is based solely on my experiences in the last 5 months past. I trust that everyone that was involved reading this are completely understanding in my decision to post this to the general public. I find it okay to discuss my personal life here on my blog as long as the people mentioned are kept anonymous, if any of my friends disagree with this explanation or my writing it publicly, i ask your forgiveness on the spot. This has been weighing on my heart for sometime and i felt it right to write about it now. Thank you for reading this, I love you all!

  

I think im in love :), and other random things

Ok, so it has been less than 24 hours with our new iMac, and i am NEVER going back to a PC!!!! Uploads that used to take five minutes to find, are now uploaded, and then posted in less than 1 minute! Posting a comment on Facebook, takes less than a SECOND!!! I'm totally amazed.

Plus, you can take photos with the buit in web cam, and used cool effects, like so:

:)
Oh, and it gets wayyyy better than that, like how the computer automatically spell checks everything i type (like the way with too many Y's? that one was intentional :) . You can make movies on your computer, take video, and even chat! Plus it automatically saves everything I'm typing right now!

Sorry, i did 2 straight posts about the iMac. But don't worry, I'm going to talk about more stuff, like, right now!!!

So tonight there is SUPPOSED to be sleet, and sleet is likely to freeze overnight into ice. If this happens, school is likely to be canceled, and I'm PRAYING to GOD that it does! The teachers always tell us it won't happen, and to not get my hopes up, but my hopes are currently orbiting around the Moon, i don't believe they'll be down anytime soon.

I've decided, that if school is cancelled, i will write an improv poem all about my day! (now that i have a little incentive, maybe it'll happen :)

  Thats all for now! See you all soon!

Got my iMac on!!

Hey peoples! Today shall be noted as a great day in history. Why? you might ask. Since I am not a person of riddles, and you probably guessed already from the title, today, I, Elaina, now have in my posession an iMac! It came in the mail in a huge box, and I was excited already. Then we opened the box. This machine is GORGEOS!!! I think im in love, seriously, not kidding.

Before this computer, as a family we had this old Samsung 2005 piece of junk with a tower and everything. The cool thing about this computer is 1. No tower, 2 Widescreen moniter 3. HD effects, and much, much more. I know one shouldn't like something just for its looks, but it is SOOOO BEAUTIFUL!! Seriously amazing. I know there is more that i could say, but i'm going to be spending the rest of my free time using a computer ( i know, sad, right?). Bye!!! :)

Good, Evil, and Facebook: The Social Network

      

                 Today I had the experience  of watching the dialogue filled, twist filled, overly complex, overly perverse, and yet in my opinion, wonderful film that is The Social Network. As a regular user of Facebook, and a person who is always interested in the art form that is film, I was anxious to finally see what this critically  acclaimed movie was all about.

             
       The movie started with a conversation that i didn't completely understand from the beginning, and went off from there. I noticed the overuse of girls wearing basically nothing but their underwear, curse words, and beer. But this isn't your average stereotypical teen movie. It is filled to the brim with intellectual conversation, Internet script, and the  not so average life of a Harvard student in 2003. I find it interesting that one can now create a legacy big enough to produce a screenplay  half a decade after said legacy was invented. But what also interested me was the casual use of legal terms that I am nearly certain the average human being could not begin to understand (though i guess it is Harvard, isn't it?).

      The shots used for what seemed to be by this film's perspective, average life at the prestigious university that is Harvard, was cluttered with less than prestigious parties, drinking, and drug use that the members of high class society, who thought they knew Harvard, would freak out at the questions this movie brings. I have never been to Harvard. I cannot factually tell you what day to day life is like there, but last time i checked, prestigious colleges who have amazing reputations shouldn't be so filled with perversity.

           Not to say i didn't enjoy it. It is still a great film,  but it also brought to my attention this question: Are people truly good or evil? Sure Hitler was a Fascist who killed millions of human beings, but wasn't he also an artist that loved his mother? Is Mark Zuckerberg a selfish a**hole who stole the original ideas of two other associates, or is he simply one kid in a sea of people, using his knowledge to better himself, and others? If the entirety of the earth is corrupt and evil, and we are all sinners, then what, i ask, defines a so called "good person" ? Perhaps we are all evil people, with certain amount of goodness bestowed upon us. Perhaps Harvard is not the safe private college i once foresaw it as. Or maybe we are good people, who purposely give into the temptation of sin, which changes us, and makes us bad people. Maybe the producers created the screen version of Harvard for more appeal to today's general public. Over all though, it is safe to say The Social Network is a great movie, and if you are over or are 13, you should see it.
  
        I'll leave the rest of the questions for you to answer :)

Greetings, People of Earth

    Hello! Welcome to my blog :). To start things off, my (real) name is Elaina, and I'm from the U.S.A.! I love to star gaze, read fiction novels, and listen to music. I also have a bad (but ohh so good) habit of staying up late. Really late. So late I'm gonna die at school tomorrow late! Hence the title^ ;). I personally think that life would be so much easier if school would start at 10 p.m., so i could sleep in everyday. But sadly, the world doesn't run on a night owl's schedule, and until i get a job on the night shift, I'm stuck to getting up at 6 a.m. five days a week, the torture... In other news, its Martin Luther King Day on Monday! Thank you, Mr. King, for helping the U.S.'s African Americans fight for rights, so i can stay up on a Sunday night :).

That's all for now, i know today's blog was basically an introduction and some randomness, but i shall come up with some interesting writing topics ASAP! Feel free to comment me suggestions if you have any ideas. Until then, See Ya!